Adventure

Yesterday(dec22), we had our new car, a red Super Sports Adventure.
Actually, it was supposed to be delivered to us the day before(Dec 21) but due to a long line and heavy traffic it was only delivered yesterday.
English tires me.:) so i'll go for my Tagalog for a while...
Dahil dun sa sitwasyon na iyon, kinabahan ang mga magulang ko. Naging paranoid sila. sino ba ang hindi magaalala, mamomroblema, mapaparanoid? higit bentekwatro oras na namin iniintay yung sasakyan eh... yung  ahente naman kasi di na macontact nung gabi(dec22) na...
pero...
Thank you Lord! okay naman na siya... nagamit na nga namin ehh..:)

waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

I gave up...
Can't force myself to do  things i just don'feel like doing.
I will just be criticized and mocked by my prof.
well, i know that i deserved it..
Just a preventive measure, i am not gonna do it anymore..
It will be useless, you know?
Urgh!!
need to work harder for the next one..
Position paper.
How am I gonna do it?
Freaky....

Hopeless case

Been procrastinating my reaction paper for days. It irritates the hell out of me.
I can't do anything about it. The movie caught m y interest, but doing a reaction paper for it, eeh!!! I just can't... i don't have drive for doing it.
This attitude sucks!!!
I hope time will stand still...
As of now, I only have 22.XX seconds to do it.
But still, i am not yet starting.
I feel so hopeless....
This attitude makes me think of dropping that subject AGAIN!!!!
But I don't want to think that way...
I want to be able to survive to surpass this subject already!!
Urgh! but I just don't feel it, reallly..

Simbang gabi

Christmas is near. Only 4 days to go and it is Christmas time. 
Honestly, I don't feel the season.
Why? I dunno.
It is just that, I think, there are things missing. Kumbaga, may kulang.
But i can't pinpoint what it is.


The simbang gabi started the afternoon of December15 or the Dawn(is the english term for madaling araw) of December16. I wasn't able  to start it. Why? because I am still in Los Banos that time. And, my classmate and I did our paper in physics. I was able to start it last saturday only.
Do you believe in the saying that, if you are able to complete the simbang gabi, one of your wishes will come true?
I don't know if it's true. I haven't completed it(as long as my mind can remember... :D)

change

There are people around me. But sometimes, I pretend that they are not there, that they do not exist. That is me, but i myself can't accept the fact that i am that way. I,myself, wanted to change. it is just that i am not capable of doing so. i am weak when it comes to going against what i am doing.
i wanted to change. I do want to change. there are lots of attitude that i have that i wanted to replace with something better and acceptable. but sometimes things run through my mind, if i am gonna change  things in me, it will not be anymore. gets? i mean, we have characteristics and attitudes that make us unique from others. if we're gonna change it, then we are, in a way, losing oursel ves in the process

i feel so stupid!!!!!

I feel so  lazy,too.... i have to do something, but i don't feel like doing it. This feeling sucks.

I just hope i'm gonna be able   to change this attitude of mine.

I have a paper due today, I think it is until 5 todaay, but until now I haven't  started  anything. AS IN!

I hope i can bring back time....

[connection pls?]

"I hope that the person who I want to talk to (in a serious way) will start talking to me. After all, what are "friends" for? It's not like I'm forcing something to happen or whatever. I just want things to be CRYSTAL CLEAR. So please, Lord, give this person the sensitivity and courage. Please."
~ posted by a friend ('My Christmas',an authentic replica)


This hit me, badly... well, i am not sure if it is meant for me, but I am hurt, i may say.

Christmas break

Now will be the most useless break for me. Why? Because  it will not be something I am gonna enjoy. There are lots a things for me to do. even though I don't wanna do it, I am forced to  do so. 'Cause if I am not going to do it, I am going to fail. I don't want that to happen. I never want that to happen.
reaction paper, position paper, review, readings, pre-lab report, topic outlines, thesis statements,.,. and many more.
I never really liked English. But now, I must learn to hug it. or else i will be pushed towards '5.0'.. haha


advance merry Christmas to alll...

Enrollment

I'm going to Los Banos tomorrow with my friend to enroll for the semester. Every time I enrolled it was raining. I  wonder if it was going to rain  tomorrow.  I just hope it won't. :) Speaking of enrolling, it will be a long time of falling in line again. But since it is still early and there are fewer students,  I think it will be kind of shorter.

BTW,Tomorrow will be the start of my semester. I don't want the break to end but it is already time to continue my battle concerning my studies[whoa! battle. :) hehe Can't think of a word to replace it.]. I've had all the rest I was entitled to have after a stressful semester. And this resting time is now exhausted. It is now time to experience another stressful semester. Well I hope that just like the other semesters that passed I would be able to surpass and cope with the challenges that i will be facing. Surely, it will be harder  compared to the other semesters that passed, I think I'm gonna be able to do it though. Of course with  the help of those around me and also God.

My Sembreak will now END

I've had around two weeks of break this sembreak. :)

I just wasted that 12 days of my life by just doing nothing. Not really nothing, i mean doing unproductive things. Actually I now have my routine, wake up...internet...eat...internet...magsaing...internet...eat....internet...internet...sleep....wake up...internet...and so on... For me it is alright, but for those around me it is not good. What's wrong with it? Maybe because what i practiced was laziness. This will soon end. i only have two more days to make my break useful for our house. :)

This second semester will probably be my busiest semester. I am going to take three of the branches of science, and i am going to have math, english, psychology, and a PE. The three sciences are chemistry, physics and microbiology. I am not sure if I can do it, but if I will not try will I know what's gonna happen? Probably not.

I just hope that I will be able to surpass this sem with good grades.

My First post... nyahahaha

I know have my first blog... bwahahaha

Okay how am i gonna start?

Let's start. Some things about me.

I'm one of those people who is normally ignored by those around me. I hate the feeling of being ignored, but I'm not doing anything about it. I don't feel the importance of doing so. :) I say I'm shy. But there are  times that I'm not. I got talkative to specific people only, one would be my sister. I'm having a hard time in showing myself to those around me. I don't know why, I'm just like that.
maybe I'm afraid of being misjudged. I'm afraid of losing them, of having them move away from me.

This things don't connect at all... :D