change

There are people around me. But sometimes, I pretend that they are not there, that they do not exist. That is me, but i myself can't accept the fact that i am that way. I,myself, wanted to change. it is just that i am not capable of doing so. i am weak when it comes to going against what i am doing.
i wanted to change. I do want to change. there are lots of attitude that i have that i wanted to replace with something better and acceptable. but sometimes things run through my mind, if i am gonna change  things in me, it will not be anymore. gets? i mean, we have characteristics and attitudes that make us unique from others. if we're gonna change it, then we are, in a way, losing oursel ves in the process